Of course you are absolutely not a hypocrite. Bad days, bad weeks, bad months, bad YEARS exist - they are a reality, they are normal, and I hope you can see that you really shouldn’t beat yourself up about it.
I mean, I founded this blog about fat acceptance and body positivity. I talk about acceptance and positivity and how I’ve found it, how I can help others find it, how all of these thoughts work…But I am not positive all the time. I have clinical depression. There are times when I look at my body in the mirror and can’t get around the dislike I have for myself. There are times when I rarely look at myself in the mirror. There are times when things trigger my depression or anxiety and I feel things that are out of my control.
I just allow those feelings to exist, acknowledge them, write about them, talk about them, let them run their course, and try my best to move on and up. Because they’re normal.
Expecting nothing but positivity from ourselves will result in nothing but feeling guilty and disappointed, because perpetual positivity doesn’t and shouldn’t really exist in ourselves as human beings, you know? Allow yourself to feel whatever it is you are feeling, whether it be happy, angry or sad, and know that your feelings are legitimate, but do not define you. <3