i just went to a new swimming hole for some good old fashioned night swimming and it was so delightful and exactly what my mer-slut heart needed. when we got there we walked out to the end of the dock, promptly took off all of our clothes in front of the other swimmers and jumped in. j-lux and i held hands and i yelled ‘CANNONBALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL’ as we jumped in together, it was like, SO obese lifestyle (seriously though jlux is the queen of cannonballz). we splashed around and laughed while the sun sunk into a beautiful pink and i watched gratefully as the stars began to twinkle above our heads. there were swallows and bats and booty and babes and no body shaming, just joy and support and love. i really needed that today because as much as i wish my life was all whimsy and crop tops, it also involves a lot of hard fucking work and sometimes a fat bitch just needs to let loose, you know?
i’ve been thinking a lot about how like, it’s really important to talk about bodies and fatness and stuff online but it is also really important to embody the things that i am putting out there. i am doing a lot of that work these days. i would have never gotten naked in front of people like that even two summers ago, and it feels really good to be wearing weather appropriate attire (aka no more long sleeves during heat waves) and honouring and trusting my body and the places it can take me.
majestic: prince(ss) of whales
“as much as i wish my life was all whimsy and crop tops, it also involves a lot of hard fucking work and sometimes a fat bitch just needs to let loose, you know?”
I love you, I love this, I love these words, I want to take my clothes off and dive in a pool with my lover at sunset. <3