Well, I hope you can understand that you are absolutely not disgusting! My situation is quite similar to yours. The hair on my legs, pubic region, and tummy/happy-trail region is bountiful. I used to really stay on top of shaving it but my skin would get really irritated, so I’ve started cutting back and letting it all go.
The way I see it personally is that my body just naturally loves to produce hair. I am naturally furry. Most people are. Some ladies have thinner, lighter hair on their legs - mine is dark and sometimes coarse and prickly. It has taken me a while but I have become pretty damn near indifferent to it.
This pressure from society to banish all female body hair didn’t always exist. In the early 1900’s when fashion began to call for shorter sleeves and underarm areas were acceptable to expose in public, companies that manufactured razors and hair removal products for men began to shift the focus to women by marketing and creating products especially for them. This was, of course, post-Industrial Revolution madness, when any product could be made and marketed to the masses, and practically every product was.
Companies and manufacturers created a need that hadn’t formerly existed. Ads touted female body hair as “unladylike” or “objectionable” - as fashion shifted to allow for shorter skirts, hair removal products advertised accordingly, capitalizing on body shame, making body hair the enemy - the thing standing between you and your “true potential” as a woman.
When I first started to understand that, I began to really acknowledge the bullshit behind what fuels this requirement for all females to maintain smooth, pre-pubescent, hairless skin. It’s not on you, or me, or anyone else - all this hatred toward what grows on our bodies naturally was TAUGHT to us. We have the ability to unravel that shit.
I urge you to do a little more research. It’s always worth acknowledging where this shit comes from, and to me - learning these things have been essential on my journey to self acceptance.
So my advice is not to be so hard on your beautiful self. Your body hair may seem to be persistently disgusting, but it doesn’t know any better - it’s just doing what it does. It’s a part of you. Whether you shave it or not, I hope you come to accept it. <3