TW: Weight loss
So, I just read your calling for submissions. Here is mine.
One of my best friends, my brother’s future wife, is a size 4. Today we went to H&M and she found this beautiful trench coat for $30. I’m a size 20, and Old Navy doesn’t even carry size 20s; at least not the one we were at. I almost started crying. I was finally becoming okay with my body the way it is, but now I’m heart-broken again.
Their wedding is in 5 months, and I’d like to lose weight. I’m also terrified that no one will ever love me without losing weight. I’m hoping to lose 10 pounds a month, with my ultimate goal of dropping 70 pounds. I will never be a skinny girl, but I want to be a beautiful woman. And I don’t think being best friends with a small girl will ever make me feel like that. But I love her, and I hate that I’m jealous of her body.
I want to feel pretty.
submission from angelsforashes